The small hours of today marked my realisation that I was no longer an author./ philosopher / physicist: just an elderly bloke with Alzheimer's syndrome. It's quite a relief!
... (continued a couple of days later ...)
Yes, that's the gloomy thought woke me then. But, while the first bit is true, I must add that I continue to receive many gifts. When the need arises, I can still allow the world to open for me the unseen "isness" of the trees and the land; and, when the need becomes great, the unseen presence of the angels.